Its 11:17AM on a Sunday. I’m here with nothing to do (okay, im just really lazy).
Lately, i feel disconnected from everything. I have this uneasy feeling that I carry with me everywhere I go. I don’t know where it came from or how it came about….but what I know is I feel like Im slowly moving further and further away from my feelings. If that makes any sense at all.
I miss you. I really miss you. I mentioned your name the other day unconsciously. I feel dumb for being so attached to something that was only 3 months old………………..but I cant help it.
I hate you for it.
I’m sorry I’m not making sense. Then again, nothing’s making sense to me lately.
Dear (insert name),
Instead of getting angry and bursting out like I did the other day, I wish I could have said that I’m disappointed in you.
I’m disappointed in you because I thought this could have gone somewhere.
I’m disappointed in you because you took my feelings for granted.
I’m disappointed because I realized that you will never belong to me because you belong to someone else.
I’m disappointed because you made me feel like I am able to see myself with someone else and then break my heart.
I wish I could tell you how upset I am and how much I miss you.
I wish I could tell you that although we have never met each other, I actually genuinely and sincerely have feelings for you.
I wish I could tell you that I have already got my hopes up.
I wish I could tell you that I started picturing what it’s like to be with you.
All in all, I wish I could tell you that I miss you and I wish things could have turned out differently. I wish that you weren’t such a dick. It’s so sad. I wish things didn’t have to end this way.